Dec 27 2007
What happens when you admire someone so much that you would give them anything to make them happy, and the one thing they want is something you have, but you don’t think it’s the right thing for them? This is a conundrum, yeah? How do you fix it?
Dec 26 2007
Life can be kind of funny, and I don’t necessarily mean in a LOL WHAT kind of way. I had a blog post half written/outlined in my head about something that had been consuming a lot of my brain power lately, and a series of events that, depending on how much you read into it, may or may not even have been events at all, let alone related to each other. But to me, they were important events and they were related for a reason. I was having a hard time figuring out if my view on the matter was legitimate/realistic, but I was unable to put myself in anyone else’s shoes to get their point of view. Then this morning I had a pretty important realization that helped make some other pieces fall into place, which was exactly what I was hoping for by making the blog post in the first place.
BUT… Instead you’re reading this post because, like I said, life can be kind of funny.
So there you are, skating along at a pretty good clip, full of pride, and feeling really good about pretty much everything. I mean, you’re mostly unstoppable now. Nobody can derail you. A juggernaut, really. But then YOU slip. Nobody pushes you. You don’t hit a patch of bad ice… You make the mistake yourself, and you fall. HARD! And you lose your breath. And your eyes almost well up. And the embarrassment rolls in, along with an unbelievable amount of disappointment in yourself. Because you know this place. You’ve been here before. The shame makes you wear your hat low over your eyes, because there is no way you can face anyone at that point. And that thing that had been taking up so much of your brain space is shattered and probably gone forever. And if it’s not gone forever, then it’s changed in a way that you never wanted. And there is no reset button to press. No undo keystroke to go back in history. And the worst part of all is that you KNEW what you were doing, and you knew that it maybe wasn’t such a smart thing to do, but you did it anyways. And you did it to such an UNDESERVING person. Because you’re a goon.
I think the worst thing about doing something to someone or disappointing someone is that you don’t do it to just them. You do it to them, and everyone that has their back. And in this case, the people that have this person’s back mean a lot to me too. And I was supposed to be one of those people that has this person’s back. I guess my actions show that I don’t. And that adds another layer of disappointment. And you’re searching and searching for a reset button that you know isn’t there. And all you can really do is say you’re sorry, but the fact of the matter is that if you were really sorry, you never would have done the thing in the first place, right?
This has happened before, and I’m sure it will happen again. It had been so long since this last happened… So long since I’ve felt this terrible, I think I really believed that I would never have to feel this way again. I guess I thought I had enough things figured out that I would be able to avoid ever having to feel like this. Clearly, I was wrong.
And I’m still sorry.
Really!
Dec 23 2007
Dec 14 2007
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Dec 10 2007
Hole. Lee. Kwap!! Can I just say, BEST PARTY OF THE YEAR!? I was at it. Tonight! It was awesome!!
So, tonight was the MiamiBeach411.com Christmas party, and it was awesome! It wasn’t next level in the sense of bare titties… I mean breasts! being showed… Or privates being showed, in general… But it was very Next Level as far as the people that I got to meet!
Number 1: I was happy that I got to talk with Rick from stuckonthepalmetto.blogspot.com again! He’s one of my favorites! Aslo, I was stoked that I FINALLY got to meet Alex, too.
Number 2: I got to meet Miami Fever!! I have such a super hard boner for his pictures!! I mean, his pictures make me want to NEVER touch a camera again because I KNOW that I can’t go next level like he does, and it kind of bums me out. But his pictures don’t bum me out at all! They’re all A+++!
Number 3: Actually, number 3 and 4 are a toss-up between Restaurant Gal and Sara from All Purpose Dark. I think RG was a a tiny bit stoked that I was familiar with her blog, but Sara went Next Level by dropping an F-bomb! I love girls that aren’t afraid to tell it how it is. Especially if it includes swearing!!
Number 5: zOMG I MET DAN RENZI FROM MTV’s REAL WORLD!!1!!1oneOneONE ELEVEN11!!! So, we’re going around the room, and everyone is introducing themselves, and this guy that I hadn’t yet seen, but was sitting 4 people down from me, stands up and says “Hello, I’m Dan… I write for the Miami New Times and I apologize for… blah blah blah.” My point being, he didn’t say he was on The Real World, and I was like… “WTF?? This dude looks familiar… HOLY CRAP!!! Is that Dan from the Real World: Miami??” Then I asked a couple of people I was sitting next to if that was the dude, and nobody knew, but then Sara confirmed and I think a little paternal cool whip came out at that moment! Because… Nobody knows what it was like for me to be in college in Walla Walla Washington, watching The Real World: Miami, and thinking about how cool those people were, even if they started out as regular Joe’s, for the most part. I mean, I think (as in, I’m 99/9% SURE) I still have the entire season on VHS!! Seriously, before I came to Miami, everything I knew about Miami came from Miami Vice and The Real World! In fact, if not for The Real World, I maybe never would have came here in the first place! So that was kind of a big deal to me, but I never really talked to him, because I didn’t want to be all… “Remember that time when you said XYZ to Flora?? OMG THAT WAS SO AWESOME!!!” Or whatever. I don’t know… You can say what you will, but it was neat to me!
Other than that, I mostly hung out with my usual crew… Tere, Maria, Yvette, and Scott.
Obviously, Gus and Michelle deserve MAJOR PROPS for organizing this party, and, most of all, footing the bill! I hope it was worth it for them, because it was for sure worth it to me!
Actually, to make it wort it to them, how about checking out MiamiBeach411.com? Maybe even sign up and post in the forums! I’ve made a whopping 2 posts there myself! I dare you to try to top me!
Dec 9 2007
I know this is old, but I love it so much it is pretty much the only reason I am able to survive the rest of the year.
Well, maybe not… But I present to you: Rudolph the Five-legged Reindeer!
Also, if you’re going to find this video offensive then you should probably not watch it.
Dec 8 2007
Family Force 5 Really Real Show
Here’s an episode of the Really Real Show that was filmed in Miami on the day Brandon and I saw Family Force 5.
20 more episodes of the Really Real Show can be found here! I think you should watch all of them.
P.S.: I hope it’s obvious how UNserious these guuys are about themselves!
I love Family Force 5 and the Really Real Show SO MUCH!
Dec 27 2007
Really looking forward to these…
The Eye
One Missed Call
Harold & Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay
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